“This book is an account of my winding, messy journey from exhaustion to peace, from isolation to connection, from hustling and multitasking to sacred presence. And this book is an invitation, too—a hand holding out across the pages, inviting you into that same journey, because it has been the greatest, most rewarding change of my adult life.”
I think this drive for perfection manifests first of all in the the tendency to put our lives on hold, waiting for “things” to be perfect, whatever those things are for each of us — jobs, homes, relationships. And second, it’s the impulse to prove and perform, instead of allowing our vulnerabilities and weaknesses to be seen.
I have a deep sense that when I finally get it all together — my messy house, my weight, my all-over-the-place emotions — then I’ll finally be happy and whole. But the word that’s guiding me right now is anyway. I wish all sorts of things were different about me, but I’m showing up anyway. I’m connecting and letting myself be seen anyway. I don’t want to miss any more of my life waiting to get it all together.
And I have missed so many sweet and tender things along the way because I was too busy pushing and proving, believing that I had to hustle in order to be loved and accepted. That myth has shaped so much of my life, and the work I’m doing now is to believe the truth: love is never, ever earned, and it was, in fact, there all along.